I Feel Like a Fluffy Marshmallow

Okay, we're at 38 1/2 weeks on this baby! It's really starting to hit me that she is gonna be here soon! I feel like I've been pregnant forever...starting back when it was summertime and there were flip flops and green grass everywhere. (I'm so beyond done with all this snow and cold weather). I'm trying to stay positive even though every pelvic joint in my body aches on a constant basis. I have one more shift to work this coming Friday, and then I get 4 glorious months off for maternity leave.
It's been a bit of a roller coaster for me with having a third child. Part of me is freaking out on the inside...wondering how in the world I'm going to be a mother of three and manage it all. Making sure all three feel special and loved and attended to. Wondering how I'll ever go to the grocery store with three "goats"...or the park...or the pool. Hoping that going back to work part-time eventually will be okay with Jason putting all three to bed two nights a week. I feel like the doubts and insecurities are piling up on me.
But, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this baby was meant to be. After having a history of miscarriages and high risk pregnancies, this pregnancy has been golden. There hasn't been so much of a hiccup with this pregnancy, for which I am so thankful. I know that God purposed for us to have this baby girl. And that alone trumps all the doubts and insecurities that come my way.
Of course we are also excited about her as well. Can't wait to see her, touch her, smell her, talk to her, kiss her, and see what she will look like (red hair or black hair?). I can't wait to fit her right into our little family and introduce her to Abby and Ben.
And as a sidenote: I'm also really looking forward to the light at the end of the tunnel. Drinking more coffee, putting my wedding rings back on my unswollen fingers, sleeping in any position I want just because I want to, and working on getting skinny. Weight Watchers, here I come! My kids have been the snuggliest kids ever with me lately. They just want to snuggle all the time! In my mind I think it's because I'm such a loving and nurturing mother. But, I'm really starting to think that it's because I'm looking like a big ol' fluffy marshmallow.